Maybe this was always my fault
Here I am, sitting alone at a cafe. I don't know what happened. It's 15.37, I just needed a reason to get out of the house. I'm suffocating there.
Though, this isn't that bad. I'm enjoying it. Somewhat.
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None of these are hatred for the person
Seeing some people that I know getting married and having children filled me with a weird form of pain in my chest. I feel stuck, unable to process the world that is leaving me behind.
Betrayed that nothing came out the way I probably intended. No matter how much I read books about how things are supposed to be "on time" and not to worry too much about the way others are, I simply can't connect the two concepts in my head.
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The sins of using AI
I am using AI in most of my daily workflow. It's not a sin to do it then, and it's not a sin to do it now. While I know that "sin" is a strong word to describe the sentiment people have around AI, I still think it's appropriate.
People would unironically act as if someone is a criminal for using AI. Granted, those are cases where generative AI is used for "artistic" work — something a lot of people are rightfully sensitive about.
But as is with any crusade against "evil", it became evil itself. Stare into the dark, and sometimes who stares back but yourself?
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Balikpapan, dan Rasa Letih
Tiga puluh empat jam adalah total waktu perjalanan yang gw tempuh dari Banjarbaru, Kalimantan Selatan menuju Balikpapan, Kalimantan Timur. Gw udah kek nyatu sama kursi bus. Ini perjalanan gw ke Kebun Raya Balikpapan, 16 dan 17 Mei 2026.